A Return To Blogging!

I guess I’ve sort of been inspired after watching Precious to write about my day. I stopped blogging last year when I was in hospital because I thought I was going to die and a part of me sort of accepted it. But I’m better now and have been fighting everyday to make myself stronger in my mind; to not fall into that state again of accepting that my illness rules my life.

So yeah, I watched Precious with my mum and absolutely loved it. It was one of the two Blu-ray’s we rented from Blockbuster’s, which has just re-opened ’round the corner from our house. After visiting, I don’t know why they bothered re-opening, the place has been stripped of its carpets and colour and is … well, it’s just ugly and I don’t want that thing carrying the Blockbuster brand – the brand that filled me with so much joy during my teenage years, the place that introduced me to a back catalogue of Videotape films, and saw me through the evolution to DVDs. It makes me sad that is what it has become. I hope it’s not a sign of things to come and that soon cinemas will follow suite. I’d say half of the movie watching experience is atmosphere. Blockbuster had IT. Now it’s gone and I can tell pretty soon the whole brand will disappear.

Very sad. But I shan’t dwell, I did other things today. Mainly, I slept for almost 15 hours, and woke up to some lovely texts that have brought forth a change in the way people have been treating me lately. I don’t know if it’s part of my regime that’s rubbed off on them, but a lot more people are being honest with me and laying their agenda out on the table. I like this. It says, this is me, accept me as I am or don’t. I feel so many times in the past this has not been the case with people and I’ve had to let them go, despite it being emotionally difficult – clearly, I’ve benefited, and I’m reaping the rewards now (or soon).

After I woke up, I had to wipe my eye clean, ’cause I have a mild infection. I suffered from it in my right eye a few weeks ago, and now it’s in my left. It’s just my tears don’t stay on the eyeball, so their constantly producing tears. I’ll have it sorted under the week as my mum, being the Supermum she is, phoned ahead of my scheduled hospital trip and ordered a repeat prescription.

So after I had my eye looking as normal as it could, I ventured out and on the bus to my usual haunt – which is Starbucks. For those of you that don’t know: first, I like to buy a chocolate bagel from the lovely, lovely girls at Bagel Nash. Then I take it to Starbucks, where I order either a White Chocolate Mocha or, my new favourite drink, a Cocoa Cappuccino. I like to sit at the window if it’s not bright, cos I love watching the people walking past, otherwise, I try find a seat with my back against the wall. And I usually just eat and drink with my headphones on, listening to music on shuffle whilst I read my timeline of tweets that have gathered whilst I slept (no more than 200, usually, as that’s all my iPhone App caches). Whilst reading my tweets, I was informed a new issue of Attitude was on shelves, so I decided to see if I could buy it. I’ve video blogged before about making that giant leap to purchasing a gay lifestyle magazine, so let’s not act like it’s a big deal anymore, ’cause I certainly don’t.

The big deal was the fact I’ve recently opened my awareness of Leeds up to include a new place: the Rail Station. Previously, I’d taken the free bus after getting into town, but after shopping and hanging out with my friend John on Friday, I discovered how to walk their, and it isn’t far at all … so that’s what I did! I walked, and it felt great, except now my foot is hurting! The Rail Station has such a better Starbucks to people watch (though it’s a trade in, as I usually get a 10% discount at the other), and the WHSmith doesn’t stock Attitude on the top shelf, which was my main reason for seeking to go their by myself in the first place. Unfortunately, it wasn’t in yet, so I just two bottles of Cherry Lucozade and a pack of Cherry Passion Tic Tacs so it wasn’t a wasted trip, then I waited in Starbucks with another Cocoa Cappuccino until my mum picked me up to take me to the hospital.

That’s all. I’m currently watching Love Thy Neighbour, which is a reality TV show set in Grassington – a place my mum and stepdad visit all the time! It’s rather good. Thank you if you read all this! I’ve started blogging on my tumblr too, so please follow me if you’re a member.

About tomsbrain

The central hub of all things Thomas McNab - a 33-year-old Yorkshire-born writer and filmmaker, living with a disability, and medicating himself with obscene amounts of films, television, and amateur wordplay. Find out more at http://tomsbrain.2ya.com.

Posted on April 5, 2011, in Hospital, Posts. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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